Clearly I've been gone from this project for quite a while. This year has been crazy, but now that things are starting to level out, I've started to feel the major pull back to photography again.
WEEK 45 - Black & White
When I consider "black & white,"
one of the thoughts that comes to me is
the "all or nothing" delusion.
And let me tell you, this is something I have been working through a lot lately.
I tend to be a perfectionist.
If something can't be done right,
then I struggle to do anything at all.
This is why I hesitate when it comes to photographing for others,
why making meals & keeping a clean (or clean-ish) home often feels like such an unattainable goal,
why a setback in the day can make it difficult to carry on with the rest of my plans.
Why is it so easy to get stuck
in this "all or nothing" rut?
It's like I'm telling myself that if it can't be done just right,
why attempt in the first place?
All or nothing?
That doesn't even make sense!
Better to do a little imperfectly than to do nothing at all.
After all, "by small & simple things are great things brought to pass."
All or nothing?
Is that even part of the great plan?
We do things by degrees,
by taking steps up a ladder.
I'm not Wonder Woman, no matter how much I envision that ideal in my mind.
I can't fly straight to the top of perfect. And if I do fly,
it's with dips & curves,
but hopefully I'm still heading in the right direction.
It's the small things we do that allow for progress & growth.
Building habits out of the little, perhaps mundane or ordinary things
that make up the great & truly important things.
All or nothing?
Who says we have to do it all?
Doing something is better than doing nothing.